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This was something I posted on a page where I play terraria...It's rather insignificant...as it's not very informative...and I haven't edited the content or other players names within it yet...but in general I wanted to do some searching since I always wondered about the player named "Kitsune" they never gave a serious reply...maybe I was to out there for her...meh. Also I have a tendancy that when I post I either let my emotions get the better of me or I post something that i call "gibberish"....I never seem to be proud of my work and i think part of that is due to the fact all my posts/musings aren't 100% being honest to myself...meh. Just remember. this was something I posted elsewhere. with no edits yet...also links are gone.XD.It may be inaccurate or offensive to some. so Sorry in advance and feel free to point out whatever you want.





Post#1
note to readers: It's pointless to read this unless you are bored as hell and have nothing to do...but even so if you are reading this you should know you have internet...go to youtube and watch something...this is just a boring trash post i'll delete after i've read over it tomorrow once i've felt better.it's mostly Gibberish but meh....
I'm feeling melancholic at the moment. so I decided to dump my feelings and my mind out on this board...It's nothing too unusual to feel depressed. I guess alot has been on my mind and I'm just thinking alot....maybe I'm overthinking things...with two kids now and a bit of financical troubles...eveyone becomes stressed. However, I see this as an oppurtunity to express myself since I haven't written storys, Drawn, or even written poetry in a long while. maybe that's what I'm missing in a way. at first glance I hadn't really noticed I distanced myself from some of my rater joyful hobbies. I always have a tendency to not notice small changes in my life...not to mention I'm rather forgetful....The reason I chose the subject line to be "Love,Chunibyo,& other delusions" is because not only was it a rather odd and oddly humorous anime to watch...in a way it rekindled my old spirit. As much as I always say I'm a fox and that I'm awesome...I also have this lingering melancholy in the back of my heart...It hasn't gone away...normally my amnesia-like memory would allow me to forget my troubles...so I have a tendancy to take each day as it comes...but lately it's been that nagging feeling that i'm missing something....like I stated before...maybe it's just stress...or even possibly a feeling of nostalgia. I have lately often found myself thinking of past times (those times that i can remember...barely) where I would look to the heavens and listen to the stars and to the spirits...after all I can sense and see spirits...This ain't a fan fiction of anything but my own personel experiences...Often i end up day dreaming of places that don't exist in this world...but it's not intentful.my mind might be just actively creating stories without me realizing it directly. It is in theory a possibility i'm just letting my imagination get the better of me...but at times i sit here and start thinking of the ppl i know on the internet (you know,those ppl you really never know).I'm often stuck at places i consider "homes" like this would be my terrarian home...then there is other places where i like to go and think...like Kitsuhana or the Kitsuaria network...would be my "fox dens". In this day and age ppl are rather open minded so it's not so bad to come out to someone and say "Hi, I'm Shinka.I am a Kitsune." ...of course it's usually met with one of several responces such as; "oooookay.....bye" or " Oh? you like Naruto too?"....or the more common one " what are you talking about?/Are you feeling okay?/ What's a Kitsune?" but often I feel lonely...Even with a Neko for my wife/gf/Partner/mate she still seems to be too narrow-minded...although it most likely has to do with the pressure often felt by those who feel like "normal" is a thing. when in reality "normal" is a human method of mass producing the same kind of ppl to do the same kind of mechnical work that everyone else who believes it's what i have to do does...but my mind is like that of many of those i meet online. Often other's who have studied human psychology might say "Bro, you're delusional..." What if i am...I can always legitimize my "insanity" with insanity...after all..how far-fetched would it be if theorhetically speaking someone stated that thru the idea of creation by just the thought of creating something it becomes reality in a different dimension? obviously that would mean that every idea ever thought potentcially has it's own parralel dimension where laws like physics might be more flexible...again that might also just be plain insanity... I feel proud to say that I am a Kitsune...I am Kitsune Shinka~... but the normal facade that everyone puts up as a front usually yells something along the lines of "pride is a sin..." you know, Often at times I can imagine myself with fox ears and a tail... you know like the anthromorphic kind you see in anime....but sometimes i also feel like a small wild red fox myself...I've had dreams similar to this...other times I've even had delusions of being a beauitful Golden Fox (sometimes my pelt is silver...must be winter at that time i guess) sitting at my sister Inari-sama's side...but it's surprises me to some degree that i can be day dreaming and all of a sudden I feel like speaking to "Father"...as in "Our Father;Whom art in heaven"...althought i'm sure it's just subconcious thinking...I'm not religious but i do like to follow some ideals behind Shinto,Buddhism,Taoism,and Catholicism...although I respect what others think as well...but that human part of me is probably as judgemental as everyone else....in a way you can say I hate that aspect of myself because being open-minded to the ideas of others in turn allows yourself to grow to be more understanding of others but even as i say that in the back of my mind I say "I hate humanity" which isn't entirely true either...the problem is so many ideas words and feelings come into play at once that everything gets jumbled...which is why i'm usually jumping from topic to topic with no order...which with paradoxism that would be a chaotic order which in itself follows an order even when it seems random...this whole thing's probably a huge jumble of "???" but that's fine...i'll probably delete it later while I'm bored and feel like hiding my presence once more....sometimes it's just better to relieve your stress through one medium of another... When i say I am Kitsune I mean My mind and soul are that of a Kitsune...at times i feel like that of a Nogitsune...what's the difference? Nogitsune are the wild foxes who just live their life while having fun/tricking/playing with ppl. While Kitsune are the Loyal Servants of the Diety O-Inari-sama...depending on where the folk-lore of fox spirits originates you might find different meaning...but for now i'm usuing the japanese fox spirits for reference... if you were to relate o-Inari-sama to another diety you might relate her to "God"...and if you were to relate the Kitsune to something else it would have to be angels...with the Kyubi-kitsune (nine tailed foxes) representing the Archangels or in this case the Seraphim (often depicted to have 6 wings)/Cherubim(often depicted with four wings). many stories have similar characteristics so I feel fine believeing what i choose to believe in while not being disrespectful and saying other ppl are wrong...The main reson I wrote this jumble was because my heart was aching and my soul was trembling...it's an abnormal state of mind for me to be in...the reason the title is that of the anime is because sometimes i feel much like those awkward moments in the show (all of it)...at one time i even felt disconnected from my Kitsune Fursona as it's often referred to. sometimes when i tell ppl about how i feel they have and inkling of an idea of what i'm feeling...some refer to vision quests...which is more of a native-american/indian thing. which isn't too far off in it's own ways...other ppl mention past lives and others say what i have to say is often random but rather mind broadening... which is fine by me i guess...I'm not sure wheather i had a point to this or not but if i did it's been washed away by the sea of red text...XD. Point being is i can relate to the Furry groups due to Fursonas/Personas... i can relate to the cult-like groups like the vampires and such... and i can relate to others as well who sometimes open up to me...becuase between me and my neko we've run into several ppl in real life just like us...and if you wanna joke about my kids....since I'm a kitsune and my mate is a Neko/kitty...yoou can say my kids are both...and that makes them KitKats.....XD. horrible puns aside...I'll just keep this run on paragraph running just a bit more...when i was 13 for some reason it was my lucky number and the age I fell into introverted research about how i felt about myself...and eventually I guess with a little bit of bias about my favorite animal being The Fox because of "the Fox and the hound" and "Disney's Robin hood" I found an affinity for foxes and researched them almost obsessively. but then I learned about mythologies of other countries and started to feel more like I "already knew all of this long ago"...as far as I'm concernec I self Identify myslef as "The Fox Sage, Kitsune Shinka of the XIII Royal orders of O-Inari-sama". the 13th royal order being based off of many principles but mostly due to my interest in the 13 elements of the kitsune... which elements? Fire,River (fresh water/ice), Ocean (salt water), Wind, Forest, Earth, Metal,Thunder, Spirit, Dark, Light, Time, and sound. If I wanted to be a bit more personal about myself I can go into greater detail about my Guardian Spirits...in a way I've embodied personas for each of these elements...but they act more like subconcious thoughts...as It's not really schizophrenia or a personality disorder...but more like extra voices in my head that help me decide things if i ever feel the need to think about situations critically...when i reality it's most likely another delusion since all in all it's basically a collection of my own thoughts manifested to seem like a council or something...in the end I'm the one thinking about risk-assesment and giving my self my own advice...however,....no one listens to thier own advice...which in a way the fact that I have "Guardian Spirits/angels" is pretty thought provoking because i feel it makes me more rational as irrational as that is...lol. If I wanted to be more specific with my delusional sale I'd have to go thru each element I have embodied in my mind....The first one is the Fire elemental...Which I embodied as one of my foxes. His name is Horin.he represents my more personal self...I guess he represents who I want to be...as for River I have embodied this one as a dragon because of the name I gave it. Leviathan...she's more level headed and often has a cold personality...which fits well since she's also an ice elemental....Also I have Melody...an Ocean Fox.She seems to be mysterious but isn't at all secretive(kinda like the real ocean...Everything is laid out for the world to see if they look)....another fox is my wind fox Inari-chan. named after obviously The god of Harvest,Land Fertility,and the moon(obviously not as big a moon god as Tsukiyomi-sama).She's a cheerful younger child-like fox...probably representing my curiosity for the world. Lilynette is my Forest fox and most likely represents my love for nature and the enviornment while also representing my distaste for humanity's cruelty to nature...now Don't get me wrong...I know plenty of ppl out there help the enviornment out when they can but most ppl "enjoy" nature without thinking about the damage they do while there....also another Fox that takes the Earthen seat is Lady Tamamo no mae. posisibly representing my inner anguish at the world and my feelings to wanting to destroy humanity...but most of those feeling are usually based on one douchebag who always think they can get their way...so meh...Ironically I have a wolf as the one who takes the seat at Metal...Who's name has 2 reasons behind it. Cobalto...one for the metal and the other because he's a wolf like Balto if you know who that is...XD...I think he represents my loyalty to others and my sttel like resolve to defend justice,truth, and the other hero like aspects... nut meh...as for Thunder/Lightning... I assosciate that with a dragon. Ironically named after the Celestial Hunter Orion...If i had to pin him down as something within me it's have to be Melancholy itself. Because it's usually the point where I ask myself sadly "why am I doing this?" wheather it be my Daily routines or something involving work...i guess it would represent my pessimistic side?...meh. as for spirit I'd have to associate that with things from demonology like Lucifer the fallen angel/ the devil. however while he may be a demon representing spirit He Doesn't hate me but worries about me...which is why I often affectionetly refer to him as Luci~...although that probably ties in with what I said earlier of my inner day dreaming where I reflect on stuff and feel as if "Father" is awnsering me directly...which in turn makess all creations including angels my brothers and sisters....but again that's proabably overthinking it...After all my persona for Luci. Worries about me and the fact he's a demon might be a metaphor of how I feel If i think about only myself I feel like I'm doing something wrong...the seat for Dark is "the end"... A celestial Dragon who represents Ragnarok I dubbed her to be Cynder...(I dunno why but i like that name...and no...not spyro...). Another Female persona though...who probably represents my stuborness sometimes. the now or never type of persona...also her sister represents the Beginning.Another Celestial Dragon who is often represented as Excalibur...(not the one who wants me to look for him in california....)anyways, I have another name for her too...Aeon (and no not flux...)...she's the younger of the 2...but none the less... If i had to pin down what she represented about me...I'd have to say it's probably Altruism...anything that would help benefit others...though i think those moments are a little more rare...as for time I'd have to say that seat is taken by Eclipse...if i said who that was I'd have to say her physical appearance was that of a character from a game I played about 10 years back and still play now and again...a game called "Trickster Online" She's the only human who has no other form...While all my other spirits have an animal form they are also shape-shifters...but choose to be animal-like beings....and usually default to one...however Eclipse dafaults to a human...but as a guardian of time...I guess it's a better body suited for watching...while having the ability to create crow like familiars....If i had to peg eclipse as something it would have to be my Distrust of alot of things...which i guess now i understand the crow-like familiars...it's kinda like being Paranoid in a way...but i'm just not that trusting to ppl in real life...and finally sound...sound is represented by another female fox...she can be moody...because she embodies sound I can see why sometimes she wants absolute silence and other times she's pumpimg up the music...probably and most likely representing my emotions since we can call most good music to be music that has "the feels" wheather it's smooth and elegant or heavy and violent...representing mood swings would have to be her representation...also her name is Sonata~...in a way it's all roleplay...but it's also aspects of myself personified....to say that to be me is to be unique is stretching it...everyone has something similar but completely different...the method is different for everyone but everyone has something similar to this I guess if they think deeply enough...but regardless i have my moments when i need to unload my stress somewhere...and this is where it ended up for no reason...XD.
What is Kitsune? Spirit foxes often known for their Trickery...
What is "Normal"? an abnormal concept of "fitting in"
why is this here? Because it's the internet....
Why are you asking questions you are awnsering yourself? think of this as the F.A.Q's...except with less of a caring opinion...XD
Notice me Senpai? >.> ....hey look a buttered fly....yup...that's odd...
Did you notice words were misspelled? Noooo~....really?.....XD
Did you notice your punctuation was horrible and that is was a run on sentence for the most part...and that you use too many elipses?Tis the Interwebs good Sir or Madam...Please refer yourself to a literature teacher if you care that much.....XD
Senpai? >.>...hey look... is that a Youtube link ?







Post#2
I'd have to say that as interesting as the concept of other youkai are i am not surprised much when someone else I have physically met finally reveals themselves to me.it was pretty funny when my Nekomata finally told me about her true self...it's funny because 9/10 other youkai can identify others but it's funny to see that moment where you say "Yeah,I've known you where something for a while now...but i couldn't pin it down.we've met other youkai as well...but most ppl who acknowledge us they themselves are unaware...but I guess finding yourself is hard.and some ppl try too hard to stand out and come up with interesting ideas to attempt to diversify one self while others naturally find connections.but again I may be biased based on many things....another thing that drew me further in was digimon tamers...Renamon...maybe it's a fox like obsession but I don't feel that way exactly...even after much Much MUCH research on the many folklore of foxes including Chinese and Korean foxes...not to mention the native tales as well...I'm usually consumed in my studies much like someone who researches their heritage and such...my fascination to the mysterious and intriguing agenda's behind why ppl make these so called "stories" is interesting...from a humanistic view these stories were around from centuries ago to teach ppl lessons...maybe I'm gullible but I don't feel that every story came out of the mind of humanity without a good reason...I firmly believe that at some point Lamia,Dragons,mermaids,siren,and other beings did exist...and by my own ideology of parallel dimensions and personal reality being a thing it is very well possible that they exist even now.after all...we who are Kitsune are technically a form of psychic vampire...I won't go into greater detail on that portion though because we need to keep things more or less PG...XD...anyways. In all seriousness I take being Kin pretty seriously...it's kind of like the fine line between Otaku and weeaboo...while otaku have fandoms like any other culture...you have that terrible term weeaboo...which is funny because it's supposed to be something highly offensive on the net.because it's someone who denounces their culture to say japan is the greatest or something like that...while i may be Mexican myself and could refer to myself as a zorro~(and no...not the swashbuckling guy dressed in black with a rapier in hot ass Mexico...)I care very little for human ideology... while we have alot of open minded peeps...we have many more close minded ppl who say you should respect your own culture and stop being a F*****g nerd...which I've always found humorous because of their disinterest in any intellectual means...but they are usually the first to band wagon someone Else's technology...just look at all those ppl who say " can't you be normal for one Day?" and realize being normal for one day probably means hop on face book and take selfies at least once a day throughout the year and post status updates whenever you go to the bathroom or fart in public...because apparently those ppl who put down any of us who think differently are the first ones to say "take my money" when someone comes out with the next latest phone or other technology...although nothing can advance within this world by thinking "normal"...I guess I'm just in a ranting mood today.I often think of the many ppl who dislike me for being different...much like how the furry community is referred to as fur fags...because you want to be more animalistic...

now hopefully no one that I care for within our Server's community finds it offensive when I say that I've never really liked the white boy/redneck who hunts for sport and calls everyone else who's into technology stupid fat nerds...because it requires a moderate level of intelligence to design and make a working fire arm and an almost exact science to create the techniques we use to make a small piece of iron fly from point A to point B by using chemical reactions...it takes no brains to clean your loaded rifle while staring down it's barrel...

I have this thing against ppl who have this overly patriotic ideology where..."Merica~ F*** yeah~" is a thing...they always say that America is the best but complain that the youth nowadays has no values...when in reality because ppl are more open minded nowadays they take the many values of different cultures and create what they feel is right...I see no reason to be Patriotic to a country of thieves where the country is currently based on a system of deceiving ppl with results that don't exist...It's not hard to convince ppl that you are doing the right thing by using "I firmly believe That our society is at the peek of brilliance due to our superficial beliefs and arrogance" if you are like most of the populace... that sounds like the best thing ever...but our education system is as biased as the rest of the world's too...we only ever tell our side of our story or always make our guys look like the heroes...

at some point I find it funny that while this is an unbreakable pattern that has been occurring for millennia we've only continued to devolve as a society...like i said before...there are alot more ppl nowadays who are open minded...but the other ppl who cannot accept that change are an issue...

I find it rather annoying that when I listen to those not within my circles all they can do is preach what someone else told them. Because thinking for themselves might make them feel ostracized...

and like i said before...I can't write things very well because i jump onto different topics rather quickly...but meh. all in all after reading what I wrote before from a scientific/Psychological perspective it really is fairly true... “Everyone's crazy anyway. And those who think they aren't, are the ones who are even crazier - because they're in denial.” ― Michael Fassbender. makes sense...

but anyways...I find it enlightening to spill my mind onto the forums.not only that but I'm even made happier by Kitsune~ Blue~ and a questionable ©Rz¥ (you know that questionable cousin you like but find them awkward...but not the kind of awkward like where an awkward romance blooms?...yeah...that one crazy cousin that you wanna hang out with but can't afford to be seen hanging around with when your friends show up because you're "normal"....yeah that's ©Rz¥...)...anyways. The fact I currently love(you know that kinda love where you're like Senpai, notice me! kinda love but with a more Yandere-ish kinda feel to it? well no not that one...more of like that one where you find out someone has similar interests but your not sure if your on the same level or if you're obsessive compulsive?...yeah that one) Kitsune!~ and as for Blue?...You just gotta love blue?...it's blue...what else is there to say?








Post#3
I felt like this was for the best because it gave me time to reflect on myself and look back onto my roots.It's been far too long since kitsuhana and Kisturia so I guess that's a better place to start reconnecting with otherkin.of course they've refurbished it over the last 5 years of my absence in both locales...XD.often times Otherkin may seem a little awkward to the community but we are who we are so meh...people have different interpretations about the community so there are many ways to interpret it....some are rather Coarse definitions but all in all communities are vast...in a way you can say that furries and "Ponies" fall into the category of otherkin as well...Which is perfectly acceptable (unlike what the connotations imply...). all in all I am a member of the Otherkin Community and have been for well Over 13 years now.Granted is it far more rare that we encounter each other... but somehow throughout the years we've physically met a couple of others like us.The funny part is that as much as i consider myself anti-social and not want to deal with humanity's affairs...yeah....point being. If for any reason you wish to know anything about The community,or feel out of place,or wanna ask me something personally...feel free to hit me up on steam or here on the forums.If there are otherkin out there hit us up on Kitsuria network or on Kitsuhana. It's not just the home of foxes but of all kinds of kin...I wanna reach out but I know our terraria Community here ain't bursting with otherkin...if you feel offended for whatever reason feel free to flame... that way I know the general opinion about me or otherkin here. Granted most long term members are really great ppl as much as I hate to admit because I am rather Pessimistic...but I digress...Whatever, ya know.I'm feeling rather Enlightened about the path I need to take to keep moving forward... I consider myself a Scholar and a philosopher of the paranormal.I guess I'm feeling a little Embarrased by my almost desperate plea to find Others like me and my Kin here too.I guess i just wanna talk philosophically with someone who I believe understands me...and by no definition am I stating that other humans don't get me...but I guess it's like that moment where you haven't met someone from your home country in a while and you run into them and put that effort to be extra courteous...yeah that feels.I guess i feel a little distressed too because i wanted to hear the opinions of other long-term terraria players on here as well...





Post#4
alright...I seemed to have missed out on mentioning the Therians as well.Therians are those who feel they can relate to animals...much like otherkin. the key difference is that we Otherkin are usually leaning toward a more mystical portion of kinship where as the therians lean more towards an almost animal like instinctiveness.in other words therians are much like wolves, birds, and other normal creatures while we otherkin in spirit feel similar to the Kitsune, Pheonix, or even the Elven... Locking thread now. feel free to PM me.
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